Friday, November 20, 2015

Stark-- The Tattoo

In 2013 we decided to complete an Ironman I decided it would be fun to complete an Ironman.  When this decision was made I also made another decision- I wanted to get a tattoo to express the journey.  I wasn't sure at the time what I wanted.  It was maybe three months into training I "knew" the idea of what I wanted- a sea turtle with the M-dot.
This is Carrie. She is Awesome.
Many of you have read the blog for some time now and know about the journey of Patrick and I both completing our Ironman journeys.  This will be a story of Stark.
For me getting a tattoo, something that will be on my body forever (because I don't by in to the notion shared amongst some that "it is no big deal, it can be removed"), required meaning and purpose.  Some will say, "Then why be branded with the M-dot?" This is as good a place as any to start with Stark's story.
Some will see the M-dot and simply pass, knowing I did an Ironman and I bought into the hype of getting branded.  But if they take time to ask they would find the M-dot holds more meaning than "just a race".  The M-dot was a journey-- one of pain, healing, heartbreak, and ultimately achievement.  The M-dot tells me that if I put a goal in my heart and in my mind I can achieve it, no matter the time it will take or the pain it will bring.
The M-dot is also a journey Patrick and I took together.  The creation and finalizing of Stark took time because the journey to us both completing an Ironman took time.  We were in this together, Stark could not have life if OUR journey was not complete.
The M-dot symbolizes the journey Patrick and I took together to overcome something that felt a lifetime away.  We did it through support and love for each other.  We did it through encouragement and faith for each other.  We did it through compassion and patience for each other.  That is what the M-dot symbolizes all of those virtues we held for each other during the two years of training and racing.  The M-dot is not a brand to me, it is an achievement that has made me a better person through the journey of achievement.
Stark is marked with the M-dot on the back of his shell, as a symbol of the journey, as we all carry with us symbols of our journeys.  Now, to explain why Stark is a sea turtle.  The sea turtle is my race animal (like a spirit animal but for racing).  Patrick and I were diving in Honduras when we came across our first sea turtle encounter during dives.  One of the turtles was nestled in some grasses, nearly camouflaged; he was content and peaceful just sitting in the grass.  This is how I feel in the water, content and peaceful.  The other swimmers thrash around me, waves catch me, but there in the water I am at peace.
The second sea turtle encounter was of one swimming along.  He swam with such ease, a single push of his front flippers he was transformed to a flying machine.  He moved with motions appearing effortless, he tilted from side to side to turn.  For a moment he even looked as if he closed his eyes and smiles as the water rushed by.  In the water this is how I feel.  There are others much faster than me, but I doubt there are many who enjoy it as much as me; that feeling of the water rushing past you, that glimpse of sky as you breath and duck back under, that feeling of life being everywhere around you.
While the sea turtle is spectacular in the water, he is a bit clumsy and clunky on land.  This too I relate to, especially in the early years of triathlon.  After I leave the water it takes a minute for me to remember how to use my legs, then as I mount my bike it takes time for me to switch from the feel of water to the feel of the air, then the run leaves little for my as far as ease, it is a struggle.  I feel like that sea turtle coming on shore, fighting through the sand to get to a safe place.
Lastly, the sea turtle and I have "the fight" in common.  When a sea turtle hatches he has to dig his way out of the sand then figure out where the water is; he then has to survive.  The fight is real for all of us in different arenas in our life. For me it is a very real fight in triathlon; having that inner will to press on when the world is trying to trick me into going the wrong direction.  This will to fight till the end, no matter the adversity ahead, is something that drives me in several parts of my life and drives me to be a better me each day.
Well that’s Stark, how he came to be.
The quick on how he got named: Thank the tattoo parlor manger.  As he showed me the art books for the different artist, he asked what I was looking to get.  I told him an Ironmn tattoo.  When I had (finally) chosen an artist, he smiled and said, “Let’s me go get her and you can talk about your Stark tattoo.” 
If you are not an Avengers/ Ironman fan you may need to have this piece of insight—The person who becomes Ironman is Tony Stark.      
 A special thank you to Carrie at Hula Moon who dealt with my crazy planning, questioning, nervous chatter, late night or early morning emails, and who helped me to laugh through the experience.  

I am are continuing to raise money for the Navy Seal Foundation.  For more information please read this: Supporting the Navy Seal Foundation- Frogman Swim 

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Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Veterans Day Moment

I want to share a powerful moment that I had today.  I went after work and sat at the Veterans Memorial Park. I watched children played and laugh as their parents looked at monuments. I watched joggers run by. I watched people pay there respects. For a long time though I watched this young woman sitting on a bench in front of a wreath. Even with her back to me it was clear she was crying. I am not typically the type to approach others but I felt compelled to approach her.
I approached her and stood beside her. I gestured to sit and she nodded. I sat beside her and simply said thank you. She looked at me surprised. I told her I did not know who she lost or how they were taken from her, but that her loved on mattered to me.  She looked at me and then looked away and began to tell me that she lost the love of her life.  He graduated boot camp only days before 09/11.  He had done 4 tours overseas and he job was to disable bombs.  Unfortunately a few weeks shy of him coming home he was killed.  She told me how they had planned to be moving upon his return and had found an apartment.  They were just starting their life together and he was "the love of her life".   
To the side of where we sat two children giggled and one ran his fingers over the names on the memorial wall.  She glanced at them.  I told her, "It isn't fair that he was taken from you and there is nothing I will say today to make your heart whole again.  But those children over there can laugh because of him.  They will not understand today who those names represent but one day they will and one day they will know and respect what has been given to them through the sacrifice of others like the man you loved."  I went on to tell her that because of her love, others, whose names she will never know, will be able to grow up to do amazing things for this world.  Those whose lives he protected will be inspired to protect the lives of others.  And because of him this world has been made a little better. 
She wiped tears from her eyes and said, "I just don't know."  I looked at her and said, "There is no doubt in my mind or heart that all those things are true.  And that her love who gave his life will forever affect the lives of others."  
We shared a few others words, which are for her and I, before I hugged her and thanked her once again.  Then I walked away, to the sound of children giggling.  
I tell you this because when we look to our flag waving on Veteran's Day, or Memorial Day, or the Fourth of July, we often forget that our flag flies on the wind from the wings of fallen soldiers, our flag flies on the breath of men and women in the field battle, and our flag flies because of the men and women who have planted it firmly in the ground.  And for all of that our thanks is the least we can give.
I will never be able to say thank you enough, not to the woman at the memorial, not to the service men and women that make up my family and friends, not to those who fought long before I knew what war was; I will never be able to say thank you enough but that does not mean I will won't try.  
Thank you today and every day, thank you for all you have done, all you do, and all you will do to ensure protection for all who may need protected. 
On the WWII memorial these words are written, "Victory at all costs, victory in spite of all terror, victory however long and hard the road may be; for without victory, there is no survival."- Winston Churchill       

Friday, November 6, 2015

Taking Care of Ourselves, Even If It Is Scary

We all think we take care of our bodies via exercise, eating well, and getting sleep.  But one thing most athlete appear to avoid is the doctor's office.  I have heard athletes say, "I am sure it is just swelling from my shoes", about a foot stress fracture; "I have some back pain", it ends up being a displaced vertebra; "It wasn't that bad of a crash", only to find out you have a broke femur; "I am just tired", ends up being the flu.

I will admit I am one of these types of people.  I have been curled up on the couch, gasping for breath, crying, and telling Patrick to not take me to the hospital; only to later get diagnosed with pleurisy caused by pneumonia. Which almost ended me up admitted to the hospital.  
I have had Patrick stand watch at the hospital room door so I could hobble to the bed from throwing up in the bathroom before the nurse came in so they would release me to go home after my knee surgery, instead of keeping me over night.
I have waited nearly a month before having my foot looked at after sever pain started during a Marathon.  Ending up with a stress fracture diagnosis which I tried to convince the doctor that a walking boot could be used as a running boot.  
I am telling you this so you will understand I am not one to run to the hospital or doctor.  In fact most years my primary care physician sees me one time- for a physical that my insurance says I have to have.  All that said I am now going to tell you, you need to seek medical help even when you sometimes don't think it is a big deal.  
I will tell you while all my test have always come back normal (eventually, sometimes), I still get nervous and feel overwhelmed with dealing with medical issues.  I think as a female some medical issues hit closer to home this was my case over the past two years.  
I have had two recent events which I think are important to share because they could have been something much scarier than what they ended up being. 
About a year ago I was having intense pain on the right side of my abdominal area.  I figured the pain was from ovarian cyst which I am prone to and hurt like a son-of-a-gun. I continued to train and race.  On one run I started to notice the pain felt started to cause pressure in my abdomen and then became stabbing pain.  By the end of the run I was leaning to my right side due to the pain.  I of course did what any normal person would do, I took a shower, got out the heating pad, and tried to rest.  Well, resting was not very restful.  I fought it a few more days, fighting through a few more workouts, until I finally went to the doctor (well, was told I could go or stop mentioning it by someone who will remain unnamed).  After some testing come to find out that I not only had ovarian cysts but also my liver appeared enlarged (yeah I know it seems weird to find one while looking at the other but they ultra-sounded the whole side).  Turns out enlarged livers can mean a lot of things- some are kind of scary things.  More testing- still not a fan.  The good thing is most liver issues can be identified or dismissed through blood testing.  YAY-- blood testing came back normal, second liver scan came back with no changes, and the ovarian cysts were decreasing in size-- pain was decreasing.  While all was good I was still worried, there is really no reason for my liver to be enlarged that medical professionals could find but there is also no medical issue found either.  The ovarian cysts still plague me but not nearly as much pain.  It was semi peace of mind but I knew for sure it wasn't as bad as it could have been.
While it took time, frustration, and encountering the unknown, it was ultimately worth it to know that my insides were really not trying to leave the union of my body and my health was intact. 

The second event happened over the past few weeks.  I have been having breast tenderness and pain.  I finally convinced myself my xray vision didn't work, a doctor would be necessary.  I went to the Women's Imaging Center near our home (after my PCP visit because of course one appointment is not enough)-- I have to say the 3D imaging is awesome (I am never having kids so 3D breast imagining is the best I get)!!!! They did the 3D imagining and an ultrasound. In the imaging there was clearly 2 cyst and a swollen lymph node.  The ultrasound showed the cysts were not abnormal, they were filled with fluid and not hard tumors.  YAY!!!  The pain was mostly being cause because the cysts are between the fibrocystic breast tissue and my muscle tissue.  While again the diagnosis was positive- it is always good to have a "go home and if you need us come back follow up plan".  Again the problem is not solved but I know what it is and more importantly what it isn't.
For me these events turned out well, but I will say this I will go to the doctor and get testing each time these pains of concerns come up. WHY?  Because peace of mind and honoring my body is why I run, so it order to keep on running I am going to make sure I make efforts to take care of me even when I get scared
I tell you this because I know it is difficult to go to the doctor.  It is scary, because WedMD tells you the worse diagnosis possible.  But doctor's have their place in helping us to take care of ourselves.  Bottom line for me is this-- I don't have cancer and my liver is not failing-- I know that right now; I am not guessing, I KNOW.  In that there is freedom and peace.  

Just a friendly PSA to see your doctor


I am are continuing to raise money for the Navy Seal Foundation.  For more information please read this: Supporting the Navy Seal Foundation- Frogman Swim 

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Friday, October 30, 2015

I am an athlete.... Right??

"Athlete" is defined as a person who is proficient in sports and other forms of physical exercise.  
Knowing the definition is one thing but knowing it applies to you it a totally different.  

See I was a sporty kid!
I struggled for some time on whether or not I was an athlete.  As a kid athletes were people who played basketball, baseball, football, or who were in the Olympics.  Athlete became a title I didn't feel applied to me.  But why not?  I danced.  I rode my bike.  I was found every warm day in the pool or some body of water.  I fished with my dad.  I could do a cartwheel.  I participated in a plethora of real and imaginary sports during physical education classes.  But I wasn't viewed as an athlete, not by myself or by others.  
 
Now here we are and the struggle to define myself continues.  But this time something is different... ME.  


I run, I bike, I swim.  I can go for 3 miles or 144 miles.  I have seen finish line after finish line.  I have fought back from injury.  I have yelled and screamed, and growled like a monster at 4am.  So am I an athlete?  

Others have started to call me an athlete- my friends, my family, my coach, my physician.  But I have never been one for defining myself by the words of others.  While it is nice to know the outside world views me as an athlete, they don't get to define me to me.  So am I an athlete? 
SRI TRI Bike

Well, yes Virgina, I am an athlete!
1st 25K Swim

It took me a long time to accept this title, but it is a part of me.  What might be interesting though is it is not a part of me because I have finished an Ironman, or because I ran a marathon, or because I swam a 25K.  These are not the reasons I see myself as an athlete, while they are athletic feats.  Instead I see myself as an athlete because I am out there running, or biking, or swimming, or doing Lord only knows what, and no matter training or race day, no matter poor weather or good weather, no matter pain or ease, I love it at the core of who I am.  Does it suck sometimes? YES, of course it does. But if I step back even in the moment of suck I am learning to be a better me.  
Moment of SUCK
Moment of SUCK

For me is was never about calling myself an athlete once I became "proficient" at a sport, it was about recognizing myself as an athlete because I loved the sport (or sports).  As I look back on the athletes who stick in my mind, I honestly can't tell you their number of games won or how many gold medals hang around their neck-- I can tell you what they looked like high fiveing a teammate or signing a baseball for a fan, I can tell you they take time to coach pee wee football or join a pick up game, I can tell you they come off the track with a smile more precious than any medal, and I can tell you that when they have a bad day they press on. 

I now accept my athlete title, it isn't for others to give or take from me, it is my title and I earned it my way and in my time.  The notches on my belt may look like they note only races but to me they are stories of the journey to who I am. 

I choose to define athlete as a person who commits to being better through sport of physical activity, who finds joy in this activity even when it gets hard, who gives back to others in their sport and life by lifting them up in support, and who knows the world is bigger than them in this moment but in the same exhausted exhale knows this moment is all there is.  That to me is an athlete. 


I am are continuing to raise money for the Navy Seal Foundation.  For more information please read this: Supporting the Navy Seal Foundation- Frogman Swim 

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Thursday, October 15, 2015

Knit Hats for our Tampa Bay Frogman Swim, Navy Seal Foundation Fundraiser


On Sunday, January 17, 2016, Teresa and a large group of athletes will be entering Tampa Bay and swimming across it with the unified goal of raising money for the Navy Seal Foundation which benefits the families of wounded or fallen Navy SEALs.

While I'm supporting in a kayak during the event, I wanted to do more to help with the fundraising goals so I'm making some completely awesome, comfortable, warm knit hats as an incentive for donating via Teresa's fundraising page.


Here is how it's going to work:
  • The Top Three Donors will get a knit hat of his/her choice.
  • Everyone who donates 25.00 or above will be entered into a raffle for the remaining hats. 
  • Winners will get to choose color/patch based on order drawn and remaining hats/patches.



I am making a variety of hats with the Frog Skeleton patch, Agents of Shield patch, and additional styles and colors available, without any patch.

I will draw names on the evening of January 17, 2016 and start distributing the hats shortly thereafter.

Please help us support the Navy Seal Foundation. 100% of the funds we raise go directly to the charity. The Navy SEAL Foundation, a 501(c)(3) non profit is ranked by Charity Navigator as one of the top charities in the nation.
http://www.imathlete.com/donate/TeresaHess


Teresa and I are continuing to raise money for the Navy Seal Foundation.  For more information please read this: Supporting the Navy Seal Foundation- Frogman Swim 

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Saturday, October 10, 2015

2015 Ironman Chattanooga 144.6



We are continuing to raise money for the Navy Seal Foundation.  For more information please read this: Supporting the Navy Seal Foundation- Frogman Swim 


So I completed an Ironman…. Said like, “Yeah, it’s Tuesday.”
I wish sometimes I could be that calm about it but I am not.  Ask me if I did an Ironman and I turn into a kid on Christmas, telling all about new toys and how they are the BEST TOYS EVER!!! 
I thought, and I think others did too, that with this being my third time at this distance that I would calm down and talk about it in my inside voice, but NOPE, still jumping up and down about the 14 hours and 19 minutes out there. 
I already talked about some of my excitement(in previous blog) in this race verses the other two full IM distance races, in that seeing Patrick twice on the run course and him finishing the course puts this race above the others in excitement.  Asides from that very exciting factor this race still held some great moments for me.
Last year we thought we had a prerace plan, but I think this year we improved on the plan by leaps and bounds.  The first thing was getting to town a day earlier.  This allowed us to do packet pick up and race meeting in a smaller group; no pushing or rushing.  It also allowed us two full (rainy) prerace days in Chattanooga.  In these days we had time to relax, run in our underwear, swim upstream, and hang out with friends and family.
On Friday we spent the day riding around the mountains with my parents.  We took it slow for the day, went to a great little barbeque place then up and around Signal Mountain.  My dad thankfully drove us around the mountain—white knuckling it all the way in the light rain and fog.  As I yelled, “Look at that tree”, “Oh, and that one”.  After our relaxing drive we headed out to the Underwear Run, an event I highly recommend to all persons racing or attending the event.  The Underwear Run was a fun time for a great cause.  There are not many moments when you get to run down the city streets in a group of people in their underwear without getting the cops called, and in fact getting waves and hoots of support. 
Friday ended with dinner at a home where friends were staying.  It was nice to sit with athletes and support systems and just know we were all in the same boat, facing down a very long day soon.  I was good to share stories about other races and life.  As we sat on the roof top looking out over the city one thing was clear, in two days we would all give it our all.  We knew we would be without each other out there on the course, but at the same time we all knew we would have that support with us--- support from home. 
For Saturday it was up early to go swim in the rain, upstream, both ways…. Okay not both ways but you get the point.  Team Trouble jumped in the water, which was warm, especially in the rain.  We headed upstream and went for about a third of a mile, passing under two bridges.  At the second bridge I had a little time before the group caught up to me.  I flipped over on my back and watched the rain fall and drip off the walking bridge.  I thought to myself, “We will run over this bridge.”  From here underneath it the bridge was not daunting, it was not a marker of a moment in time on the run, instead it was simply breath taking.  Every board, every bar, every bolt, was there to hold us as future steps would pound the boards.  I would never see or notice the supports of this bridge on the run, but here as the river rushed past me, I would find peace in knowing this bridge would hold.  Then in a second it was back to reality.  The rain was still coming down when we made the turn back to the swim out.  This swim direction was much easier, being that it went downstream.  After getting out we had some good food at a little breakfast place downtown… it serves lunch all day so I was incredibly happy. 

With full bellies we unpacked our gear for placement in transition.  The rain was still falling, but more as a heavy mist.  My bike was set up pretty much in the same spot as last year.  In transition I got rack my bike a rack away from a woman who I have been following on Facebook who runs in memory of fallen soldiers.  Her bike position stood out with the American flag.  As I racked my bike I took a moment to simply appreciate what she was doing and had been doing and to take into consideration on my race day that I have before me an opportunity given to me by those who ensure our freedom.  There is nothing but respect for those soldiers whose names she bears and for all the names not written who have fallen in order for us to stand.    
I racked my bike, took one last look around and headed out to the bag drop off.  This stage is always quick and painless.    
PEA RIDGE
Thankfully we had our PEA RIDGE friends who hung out with us for the rest of the day a we explored Rock City.  Between Mike and Ras, and my parents it was easy to forget with was looming tomorrow.
Once back at the hotel sleep came amazingly easy.  We were up at 3, showered, and ready to go.  A few more bags in hand to drop off for special needs, but other than that it was now just us getting there. 
Race morning is always an exciting time.  Mostly just listening to the stories of others.  There was a gentleman in front of us in line to get into transition who was taking about working towards a Legacy spot.  He talked about several races overseas and several flat tires.  I am pretty sure he had a flat or wreck every time he did an IM distance.  Some would think, “WOW that many crashes, why does he do this?”  I just thought, GOOD FOR HIM!!! 
Transition opened, our game plan went into action.  Since our Special needs bags were already dropped off we entered transition and went to our bikes for a double check then each of our bags for a double check, then found my parents again and off to the buses.  Unlike other IM event Chattanooga is a rolling start, and with an already limited time we wanted to be as close to the start as possible- every second could be needed.
When we arrived at swim start we were able to clearly see the blown up arches marking the path to the water.  We knew we were close, even closer than last year.  We set up camp, thanks to my parents who brought blankets.  We rested.  Well, we tried to rest.  A woman was right next to us, honestly in our bubble, talking very loudly to her group about how she can’t sleep.  Patrick and I both wanted to tell her that if she stopped talking she could rest and so could we.  The situation got worse when a friend of hers came up for the back of the line because she wasn’t going to wait and she needed to be towards the front.  This friend joining her group nearly pushed me over the edge, as we had to be cruel and fair to our friends who were running late and tell them we could not allow them in the line with us.  So as our friends sat in the back of the line so we could be fair to other racers like us who got up earlier and made every effort to be forward in line, this lady just barges up.  I was doing good not getting in the middle of things until she said, “Well, I am sure no one will mind.”  Even though she was not in front of me, I minded, I told her that she was wrong in saying no one would mind and if that’s how she felt she should go ask all the people she is cutting in front of.  She just stared at me, like I kicked her kid.  I informed her that many people are trying to get extra time so they sacrificed unlike her.  She continued to stare.  Her friend then changed the topic- I am sure to something about rude people butting in conversations. 
A few deep breaths and I was back to good.   This was a good thing because time was ticking away.  They were getting ready to put the pros in the water, so we packed up camped, handed it off to my parents, and gave final hugs to them.  The cannons went off and the race was on. The men pros were going.  Then another cannon and the women pros were going.  Then the age group athletes started to gather close in the corral. All excited.  I kissed Patrick d wished him a good race.  This was it, goggles down.  The third cannon went off---  GO!!!!!!  The group moved fast and within a minute we were splashing into the water.
The water was warm, especially since the morning had a slight chill.  The current was slow, much slower than last year.  I took me a few moments to get my bearings and to find my line.  Then I settled into my pattern—1, 2, 3, breathe, 1, 2, 3, breathe.   My swim went off without a hitch, a few arm and leg hits but nothing major I felt good coming out of the water.  The friend of ours from Pea Ridge were overlooking the swim exit and run up to transition.  I knew they were there when from the crowds I heard, “PEA RIDGE!” A sound of home and comfort, that made me smile. 
The sun was up, although we still had cloud coverage, the day was drying out.  It was time to get on the bike and go.  The bike ride was challenging, as it was previously.  Adding to the challenge this year was head wind.  Being from Florida I was fine with a headwind, but how we had headwinds and mountains in front of us is beyond me.  But I would be faced with challenges before the first head winds really hit.  On one of the earlier climbs my chain popped off.  Of course this happens the one time there is a group of people around me (we will say they weren’t drafting, but some were really close).  I lost all forward motion and to the best of my abilities coasted to the far right to get off the road.  At the time a friend and home town area athlete came by.  She yelled out for me to get out of her way.   Yep for those of you who don’t know her, you are thinking what I am sure several other cyclist were thinking about her as she yelled out to a broke down cyclist.  But for me it was another laughing moment.  I knew who I was and that it was all in jest.  The only sad thing is this particular athlete is really great at racing butt slaps and I missed me opportunity!!! 
I was able to get my chain back on with little problem.  I called out that I was returning to the road and off I went again.  I was a little more cautious on shifting and hills for a few miles but after that I returned to the thought that everything was good.  Turns out it was.  Even with the winds my bike time was faster than the previous years, the coaching was paying off.   I think Kenneth who was an “Ironman Executive Challenge” athlete, may have also helped my biking.  I don’t know how he kept ending up behind me but we got to know each other a little more each pass, he was all smiles and “good days”.
One of the things I have to mention about this route is just how beautiful it is.  The farm country and little towns, with volunteer fire departments dotted in between, reminds you that even in big cities you are never far away from the middle of nowhere.  Some may see me as a distracted cyclist but I moo at all the cows and waves at all the people sitting on their front porch. 
Upon returning to the city and managing across a few railroad tracks, it was time to go run; well first it was time to change.   I grabbed my run bag and headed to transition.  My back was locked up and tense from the bike, so I was struggling to get my top off.  The female volunteer who was helping me to get my ear out and set up asked if I needed help with my top, I said yes and the next thing I knew my top was being put away in my bag.  She also helped me get my sports bra on, which I can honestly say is the fastest I have ever gotten on a sports bra.  I put on my braces and shoes and grabbed my visor, shirt, and race belt.  I ran out still getting dressed.  
The crowd was cheering and the volunteers were all smiles.  I was off the bike in plenty of time to have 20 minute miles on the run, if needed.   My legs felt like noodles, so I walked a few minutes.  As the ramp declined I began to jog.  We made a quick right hand turn and I heard those words again, “PEA RIDGE”.  There was home!!!  My parents and friend were standing there gathered together for me.  My mom was all smiles and made me smile as I headed out for 26 more miles. 
These miles on this day would test me.  It was now warm out and I was begging for the sun to go down.  But there came Kenneth again running up behind me.  He again was all smiles and challenged me to catch him (that didn’t happen).  The run brought me across a few more friends from home, one who was actually lapping me by mile 4 headed out for her last few miles.  On the route I ran with a member of our Gavel team for a little while.  I have to admit it was a boost to be out there knowing some of the others out there with you.  As he and I jockeyed back and forth another member of our team can running up and pass, but not without an exchange of words of encouragement.  As the miles passed me and my team member grew further and further apart.
The miles trekked on and so did I.  I honestly had a lot of stop to pee moments and a stomach that was not super happy.  But I pushed on, porta potty after porta potty.  I never felt “bad” per say, but I it wasn’t really comforting either.  I hit the bridge that I had swam under and took a moment to be appreciative for it being there; there on that bridge I also found something else I needed, spectators.  I love spectators on these races because for most it does not matter who you are they love you because they live with or support another person like you- so to an extent they get it.  After the bridge I headed to the hilly side of the run for the first time.  It was actually not as bad as I remembered but this may in part have been to once again the great support out there.  From volunteers’ to police officers to people having parties, they were all yelling and congratulating.  Out here is also where is starts to become hard to tell who is on their first loop and who is going around again.  As I came out of the golf course houses and back towards the highway to go back out on my second loop I could hear the announcer calling out Ironman finishers, I knew I had time and will power to be one of them.  I also at this point knew something else which quickened my pace--- Patrick was just behind me.  As I mentioned in my pervious posting I could not have been happier.  I marked the time and miles and I knew he was going to finish, he could crawl it in from there and still finish in time.  
On my second loop the sun set, I wasn’t as close to the water as I wanted to be in order to watch it but it was still nice.  When I did reach the water there was a tug boat coming in.  Now this may not seem like a ground breaking event to anyone else but when you have been out on the course for 12 hours, the COOLEST thing you have ever seen!!!  The tug was for whatever reason shining its light on the shore line.  I am sure this was point of reference spotting, but in my mind he was lighting my way.  Up and over the walking bridge one more time and into the golf course.  I was about 5 miles from the finish when fireworks in the neighborhood starting going off--- BIG fireworks.  In fact the police office left his post on the road to go over and talk with the firework lighters (the officer was very nice, but I think he was nervous about the fireworks hitting runners).  As I ran past the golf course houses one last time I prepared my mind for the hill ahead of me.  The best thing about that hill was that on the other side was my love marching up the hill.  Now I knew for sure, he is was going to finish this race.  My heart was so happy.  I wanted to turn around and run with him but my body was being beckoned by the finish line. 
As I rounded past the finial aid station I thought of the woman from last year who put her arm around me.  I didn’t need her this time, I could do this.  This year instead my moment came a little later.  I was walking, not willingly, and this little boy asked his mother, “Can I cheer for people who aren’t daddy?”  The mother looked up from her phone (tracking her husband) and looked at him saying, “Sure.”  The little boy jumped to his feet, arms in the air, and started yelling.  I don’t even know what he was yelling.  His excitement pushed my feet to speed up.  I turned the final curve and could see the lights of the finish line.
Here we go.  I paced out to not pass the guy in front of me--- although I wanted to rush past him, but I got in trouble last year.  I pushed to the finish line, hearing “PEA RIDGE” and yells.  It was done.  17 minutes faster than last year it was done!    
One of the things I love best is the volunteers at the finish line.  It just so happened my volunteer was also an athlete on that day.  He was very kind and made me laugh.  I told him what I would tell others, “My husband is about to finish his first Ironman.” 
I took my picture and hugged my family and friends, my day was done but my heart was still running (learn more by reading my previous blog).
After Patrick finished his race we headed out to showers and Waffle House.  It seems strange to end the day in such a way but it was our way, and this whole journey we have done it our way.
WE ARE IRONMEN!!!
 FOOT NOTE: I am buying my photos too!!!  


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